I don’t know how many women have been the “big girl” and “thick” in many places. I have been that thick girl for years and years. The outside has never made me, although my outside is fabulous and fluffy. I have always defined myself as what lies on the inside. After making up my mind to follow a weight management journey, not all days have been easy. One thing about gaining weight over time that I have come to realize is there are certain things that can be lost in the process. I mean, I had given up booths for comfty tables, gave up heels for flats, gave up form fitting clothes for stretch-and-hide garments and I gave up crossing my legs. As my thighs expanded, it was hard to get them across each other. I never really thought about anything I lost when I gained weight. I actually didn’t feel I had lost anything until I started peeling back the onion and the layers in the 12 week Fit Mind Fit Body program. There was an exercise that asked us to delve a little deeper into our reasons for wanting to lose weight. The pounds came on so gradually that I didn’t miss certain little things. So for years, I sat neatly on the chair with my legs crossed at the ankle, holding my thighs together so as to not seem un-lady like. Nothing wrong with that. There was not a day that went by where I wondered about being able to cross my legs. Nope, I never thought about it or missed it. Now, about two and half months after the end of the program and almost 6 months after starting this weight management journey, I am feeling pretty good. I woke up one Sunday and did a little cardio to start my day. Believe me, this is still new to me. I am still surprising myself with the things I do these days. I went out about my day, came in to a nice, big salad I had prepped, and sat down to enjoy some TV. As I sat there, I crossed my legs. I crossed my legs! Mind you, I wasn’t thinking of anything special when it occurred to me to cross my legs. It had surely been a decade or more since the last time I crossed my legs. Now, hold on, it wasn’t a full, unobstructed cross, or one ready for public consumption, but it was a cross nonetheless. Remember, give yourself credit? I give myself credit for working hard and slimming these thighs down! I wanted to share this experience because as weight continues to drop, slowly but surely, I am finding a few things that I can do differently that I never knew I couldn’t do. So, today, I crossed my legs again and tomorrow it will be something else. What have you done differently or what would you like to do again that you haven’t done in a while? Feel free to follow my progress.
Written by PurplePearls
